well,my 1st 3 months in yjc is coming to an end.actually there's still 1 week plus to go before it officially ends but i've chosen not to go back after i've gotten my results.i may go back whenever i feel like but it also depends if friends are accompaning me.even if i go back you know the reason why...funny why i dun miss him the way i tot i will.i dun feel empty or have the strong urge to go back.now tt he just come across my mind then i start wondering.valen told me its hard to maintain a relationship if both of us have little chance of meetin each other,let alone start one.quite true...i've begin to realise tt.but if you were to let me spend one day with him, i'll fall back again.sign...i can't help questioning myself why he dun want to. 1-i'll leave the school soon2-its too fast to start.(i'm too eager)3-i haven analyze the situation before makin it clear to him4-he is not into me5-who do you think you are?!but i tot its okie as long as he is worthy and good for me to go after.if two of us really feels the same then all the obstructions wouldn't have been taken into consideration!once i tot he was too selfish to protect his own emotional prob and leave me to go through all these myself.but then tt will be my own own problem.nobody told you to like him?!anyways i'm lettin go faster then expected. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTHE'S STILL in my mind when i think bout love.he's still the one i'll choose if you were to ask me.he's stll the one whom i'll remember even decades later.now tt we see each other no more, he is slowly fading away...i may not stay in his memory but i'm happy to share the 3 months in the same school as him.one day when we were to meet each other again, i may think how silly i've been. watever it is,i'm grateful for the time we spent.i'm gratedultt god has decided to bring him into my life.now, i'm ready and await patiently for the 'bus' to bring to the next chapter of my life...the sickening song 'live twice' nv fails to bring me to tears! cox it tells how i'm feelin now. the chorus goes: if i could only let you noe
give up everything i own
just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldn't do
how could i let it pass me by
i make every sacrifice
to bring me back ur love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twiceeeeeeeeeeeeee
