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if you're not in a very good mood, shut the f*** up and dun make life difficult for pple.i get really pissed off when my friend snap at me y'day and i almost wanted to scream at ________ face for being so bloody hell rude to me.yes, i was crazy but i'm always like tt so be it, dun snap at me when you're not in a mood to play along with me.

anyways this song: you're beautiful, by james blunt is really nice. check it out!!
"You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.

My love is pure.

I saw an angel.

Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.

She was with another man.

But I won't lose no sleep on that,'

Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,'

Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,

As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,

Fucking high,

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,

When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you.

look at

what i've been investing on lately?
those long bohemian necklaces:

i bough the one with knots one from my school at just $7.80, the plastic crystal-like one from far east at $19.90 and the wooden one from bugis village at $12.50!!!

i had my usual lessons but ended early today cox HAP lab was cancelled and i can't wait to meet my dearest friend-yingzi. even though we're both in TP, we dun always get to see each other. anyways we went back to kovan cox we dun wanna go town whatsoever, we just miss the old days when we just slack around Heartland Mall after school where we talk bout all sorts of nonsense. of cox we met a lot of yuying pple and i met my god sister in MAC too! Kellin is my godsis back when i was in sec school lolx. when i was in sec 2 i happen to see this cute gal and swear i want her to be my godsis. i went to talk to my friend who was in the same cca as her and she accompanied me to ask if she wanna be my god sis. ugh those were the memories!! its cool to have a godsis!! though we still ain't very close but i used to buy stuffs for her and wrote tones of letters. she told me bout her fav guy and how she was doing with her studies stuffs like tt. can you believe tt kellin and her gang of friends tried run away frm school to pon the assembly but was caught?! ahh see?? she's naughtier than me.keke she really is.

so we got got the strong urge to go back to sec school and we did! cox we miss MR chia! aka pom chia chia i've made up cox he got a perky butt and looks like those pom cha cha dances. we cahtted with the new security, emloyed by the MOE, who was there cox every sec school must have a security for savety reasons. hurhur i kept calling him SIR! YEs SIR! THANK YOU SIR!! and we pity the students now cox now tt there's a security there, they'll have their names down if their late. we used to sneak to school at 8 after the morning assembly and no one is there to catch us! but we got caught eventually by the DM though. he was our maths teacher and he noe us very well as the naughty bunch of kids who likes to challenge the school rules.

haha tt was real funny i tell ya. surprisingly, mr chia can still remember valen cox we bump onto him in kino months ago when valen and me went to town after school.

then yingzi and i walked to the coffee shop we used to have our lunch during olevel to have the roti brata.

-i'll nv forget the sweet old days...

yinglong swears to save money for a new hp and stop spending money for earrings or bags or whtever stuffs.

NO MoRE from now on.

i like this song even though its an old old old song by MJ:

"Heal The World"

There's A Place

InYour Heart

And I Know That It Is Love

And This Place CouldBe Much

Brighter Than Tomorrow

And If You Really Try

You'll Find There's No Need To Cry

In This Place You'll Feel

There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways

To Get There

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Little Space

Make A Better Place...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why

There's A Love That

Cannot Lie

Love Is Strong

It Only Cares For

Joyful Giving

If We Try

We Shall See

In This Bliss

We Cannot Feel

Fear Or Dread

We Stop Existing And

Start Living

Then It Feels That Always

Love's Enough For

Us Growing

So Make A Better World

Make A Better World...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were

Conceived In

Will Reveal A Joyful Face

And The World We

Once Believed In

Will Shine Again In Grace

Then Why Do We Keep

Strangling Life

Wound This Earth

Crucify Its Soul

Though It's Plain To See

This World Is Heavenly

Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High

Let Our Spirits Never Die

In My HeartI Feel You Are All

My Brothers

Create A World With

No FearTogether We'll Cry

Happy Tears

See The Nations TurnTheir Swords

Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There

If You Cared Enough

For The Living

Make A Little SpaceTo Make A Better Place...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care EnoughFor The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me...*4

You And For Me... *11

all bottled up inside

i dunno what is up in my mind.

when i was struggling to solve tt stupid maths question, i got wrong for my term test, my brain switched to my secondary school life channel( i'm always day dreaming which is why my results are always poor *hiak).

though i quite like TP but i seriously find my life meaningless except studying.

in poly i have those usual HI-BYE friends, lamers to joke with,arrogant asshole, pretentious pple, hypocrites, helpful, the always hyper-active pple, and those quiet classmates which i can't find myself clicking well with. in fact i hate them!! perhaps tt is why i really really really (times 1000000...) miss my secondary school friends. but come on life goes on, they have their new friends or new boyfriends and girlfriends! they're missing me out in their life, leaving me alone to this f***ing environment i hate to its core. of cos there are one or two besties who still date me out occationally and i truely treasure this friendship. combing through hundreds and hundreds of pple i have come along this far and really find someone whom you can share all ur troubles with is harder then scoring a 100 for your exam. no doubt, one day they'll find their own sweet heart and leave me behind but i hope our friendship can still be strong.

i'm a person who is jokes and laugh bout every single thing, seem strong and free but deep inside i'm weak like a twig and friends play a big big role of my life. sad to say i can't find a real good friend i honestly call a friend in poly.

ughh... anyway we're suspecting tt grandpa had a stroke cos he was abnomally restless y'day and we realised tt his speech is slurry. but he refused to allow daddy to sent him to hospital sigh...

i'm very very sure metrosexual noe tt i exist cox he sat in front of me today for 2 long hours but it seems like 2 mins to me hahahaa..oops he is using the same sony erricson phone as me with the stickers all gone, uses the same calculator and the same G-tech pen as me! hahaa
tt's not all. he kinda knock me when i'm paying for my pocky during the break oh but it doesn't hurt a bit. anyways there's a little break during tt two hour lecture and i tot he was leaving cox he and his friend took their bag and left but when i went back to the LT, he was sitting right in front of my sit hahahaa surprise surprise!!( he sat in front of my friend before tt la).
he bought this yam yam chocolate flavoured one and started reading the printed stuff on the biscuit stick, dipped into the chocolate and ate like a little kid hahahaha i kept laughing and so did my friends. he delibrately chose those sticks tt has got good wordings on it and offered his friends those 'not so good' ones hahaa tt's so funny. oh and the way he drink from a bottle is so AI SEH!! and you noe what? his PIPC marks is highier than me!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhh i'm dumb! he is cleverer! but he really is. he got lik 19.5/20 for the quiz and i got like only 12.5/20? tt is bad k, i felt like a total loser lolx. dun play play ah. btw dun think i'm some tee ko cox i notice every single action he made and the stuff he uses haha he sat rite in front of me okie?!
ugh i can only see him on thursdays or when we happen to walk pass each other. sheesh i think he is good looking tt's all...becox looking at attractive pple makes my day *blushing*

I FAILED MY FOOD PREP BY 1 MARK!! WO HOO HOW LUCKY AM I!!!

but most probably my teacher will add one mark to push me up. i hope she will!! if she dun i'm gonna smack her face hard. piak piak! oops i swear if she read this she will make me flunk for her paper forever lolx.

actually it was a big big surprise bcox i've nv tot i'll fail food prep cox tt's the only sub i noe for god sake i won't fail, and i tot i'll fail my human atonomy and physiology but neh neh i didn't.

when our care group teacher told us she had the results slip with her, i was so freaked out i laid on the table(like those little kids who wanna cry) cox i was sooooo worried i might fail more than two subjects. and my stupid friend took out his tissue paper and put it infront of me just in case i were to cry. 'thank you' how kind of him lolx.

lolx

OMG

dun they just look alike?

my dog rascal VS 'the dog' soft toy.

fish! this morning mum woke me up at 10 plus and sis was already preparing to go out?!

lolx she picked up the my blanket and the cleo mag frm the floor and threw it on my bed so i flipped through it (i haven't brush my teeth or wash my face yet) and read the article on guessing whose bedroom it belongs to. then i got the sudden urge to give bloody hell messy bedroom a real make over!!

but then again the capital! am i rite? you need money to stock up new stuffs and give ur bedroom tt whole new look!!

many times, i've been wanting to make over my bedroom but then when i look at the tons of clothes and rubbish lying around i tell you i really really really wanna give up.

i love jean danker's bedroom cox its so damn cool!!!!agree?

haha lets put tt bedroom make over aside since i've been dragging this idea for lik yrs and i know i can't manage those rubbish, i swear. its sooooooooooooo messy. i hate messiness but i'm living in it for so long its my habit to mess them all up.

but believe me i'm not a messy person *ugh self denying again...haha dad still helps me tidy my bed!oops and my table too. but sometimes i tidy them myself k. i'm a big gal now!

went to town cox we wanted to sweep the whole of orchard road but i end up buying just a pair of earrings haha. its always like tt- when i've the intention to buy a lot tt day, i always end up empty handed, and if i'm not intending to buy a lot tt day i always end up over-spending.

anyway we went to far east and saw wang jian fu! lolx can you believe it, he is about the same height or shorter than me? but tt doesn't matter cox he was friendly enough to smile to me and i like. the thing is he was wearing a PINK jacket ugghhhh i hate guys in pink yucks. nevertheless, he is good looking though, he really is, thrust my taste.

term break is over! ugh i have to bite my lips to keep me awake throughout the draggy school days! alright babe i'm prepared for the worse- i think we're gonna get back our term test paper soon. may god bless me. in the name of the father, holy, spirit, Amen.

ahhhh-lehhh-luuu-yaaa

ahhhh-lehhh-luuu-yaaa...

sheesh since when am i so holy...

look!!!! JAM!!!

YEA i went jamming today with my new TP friends! super cool man- wolala!

lolx they want me to sing but i won't let my golden voice be heard ahaha!

k this afternoon i wanted to do my hair before going jam but the bloody salon is closed on wednesday!! how luckY!!! so i went to the new salon near NTUC at kovan since its a new shop and i saw trophy displayed so i reckon my hair would be safe to let them touch. i wanted to do soft starightening but they dun offer tt threatment so i did relaxing and the price is about the same so i went for it.

the salon's name is Neo GEo? hahaha sonuds weird but they had won quite a lot of prizes the erm: I>C>D challenge trophy overall champion, wella award 1st runner-up, 7th and !!th Golden scissors award champion, and 5th,6th,8th,10th,golden scissors award... wow!!

anyway as i was having my haircut, daniel(creative director haha aka boss la) chatted with me and he asked if i'm interested in being a HAIRSTYLIST?! i was like-HUH?! haha he tot i'm coOl and arty in some way, and said i may not noe tt i may be talented in tt area and he will send me to make up course if i'm interested so tt i can be an all rounder. hahaha

can you believe it?! yinglong?- hairstylist?! he thinks tt i've got the potential?! ahhhhhhh i'll definitely consider tt. he said i can come to his salon after school and he'll teach me hair dressing! ahahaha. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

after tt i rushed off to meet my friends to jam but i noe nuts bout musical instruments. i was on the train, sitting beside a guy and noe what? i noticed tt he din't even move abit at all (not tt i noticed him moving) throughout his trip to doby. okie i alighted at outram and changed to the green line to bedok and finally got a sit at the corner where there is a glass panel. a guy board the train and came slapping him butt rite onto the glass panel so tt when i turn round i'm seeing his butt and nothing else! forget it. i sat straight instead of leaning mydelf onto the glass panel. i dun wanna lie next to his friendly butt!

then as the train drove pass blocks of flats, i saw a singapore flag hung out. then i tot: isn't national day next month? its a little too early to hang the flag out but i bet they love singapore a lot.

ughh what a fun day! my life is sooooo interesting. should i be a hairstylist or should i not lolx hahahaha.

i dyed my hair myself today again! its deep purple tt looks a little redish brown!!!!!!!!

ugh i like my hair!!!

*sweep sweep sweep* yucks-the smell of hair dye!

keke had it done before mum comes back :p off to town later!! woooo...

til the day we meet god-

i fear the day i start to age and slowly wither away...

watching grandpa getting weaker everyday aches my heart. i was holding his hand y'day while i watch him sleep and i teared a little when no one was seeing. he begged to god to let him go and not torture him anymore. but we can't do anything but shower him with more love.

since grandpa can hardly walk anymore his legs are getting slimmer and slimmer, just like mine(but i'm skinny).he gets cramp every now and then which makes him cry out loud like something is biting him. i no longer wish tt grandpa will live to a ripe old age, i rather let him go peacefully then to see him lying on the bed everyday and staring into the air like a lifeless doll. i dun wanna hear his complians to god whatsoever. i love you grandpa and will always do. god dun treat me the way you did to grandpa when i grow old...may god bless everybody with a healthy body...

and how should i do to ask dad to quit smoking?? he nv listen to me

life is a bittersweet symphony

went to the walk-a-jog this morning with the 'survivors' of cancer patients organised by the changi hospital.

crap-you know i can fall asleep while walking? its just a 30 mins walk down to the health board at outram park ZzzzZzz 'how interseting' eh?

i saw our school pple smoking during the walk and believe me they ought to be cursed at!

even if i'm a smoker, i know for god sake, to just control for a moment and smoke later!not a the walk-a-jog!! aren't this supposed to be an activity to educate pple the preciousness to have a healthy body and to take care of it?silly monkey ass- GET LOST!after the walk i was so hungry i joined the Q for free Jacob's biscuit lolx-hungry ghost waiting to be fed hahahahahahhahaha
grandpa ain't feeling well today ugh pls get well!i love you!!

had a fun time today!! thank you las gang!

they always make my day wondeful :) so sweet. love ya all!

thanks for those who send me msg at 12am last nite too. thank you! you all made me feel special.

wah dun you think its great to have pple wishing you happy birthday, esp those whom you won't even expect them to remember ur b'day. ahhhhhh hahaha *happy*

didi, seng liang and shaun gave me a happy house photo frame with their own pics inside! lolx i laughed like hell when i saw tt cox its so sweet and cheeky.

ade and seeping gave my a soft toy radio which means i can listen to music and hug tt soft little thing to sleep hahaha i like tt too.

J.c had all 16 little stuffs in a bag to keep me busy shuffling those small cute stuffs she got me, in a bag. A balck nail polish, soap, hp pouch, earrings, key chains, underwear, ....lolx naughty gal..

jodie wanted to pass something to me but i left early after i'd done my paper.

ugh....i'm so tired.. -_-ZzzzzzZZzzzzzZZzzzZZzz nitex everyone*

one more paper to go and i'll be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
one more, one more, one more!!!

shit SHIT shit i'm so shitified!

i srewed my maths term test today!

yes again. i can't afford to fail anymore!

i dunno WTH hell is wrong with me when i comes to numbers recently.

i'm gonna redo the ten years series for o level amaths all over agian to get me on the track once again.

i'm gonna toy the numbles in my hands but not fooled by the bloody innocent looking numbers!

(*heh *heh *heh *hehhhhh wait til i catch ur butt...)~pinch hard~ ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

lolx dots dots dots

yea baby- three days to the 8th of july! the grand day of the yr!

ooo i happen to have a classmate whose b'day falls on the date as mine!

yeah!!! hop hop*

grandpa's back home frm AMK hospital and he looks real good with his new hairstyle.

its all shaved but not so short though. he got tt hair cut few days ago .

and ya noe?

one day he was watching the tv programme outside, he told the maid to bring him his comb.

but the thing is his hair is soooooo short it doesn't have to be combed! for god sake- there is nothing to comb at all!!

but the maid brought him the comb and did what she should do?!

A nurse saw and burst with laughter.

oh holy crab!! if i were there i would be laughing so hard too.

ugh glad to see grandpa at home now! i love him so much- my sweetie ah gong!

tmr's hauman atonomy and physiology test- another module i can't manage. oh my! i'm gonna have a tough time tmr.

all the best yinglong. you can do it! GO go GO//

wooooo
yea had my frist term test- principles of inorganic chem today.
tough? i think i've done it quite smoothly so at least i guess i wont' fail this test! hope not-touch wood.

oh yea baby i saw so many sec school pple and all the momories flood back.
*rewind back to my sec school days...*
i saw evelyn, eugene, rouyu, and one more! but i forgot. i've got short term memory tsk tsk.

evelyn and i had a long chat with each other. we used to be very close last time cox she sat beside me back when i was in sec 1 or 2, see time flies, it just seems like yesterday. she's currently in AJ now, taking f maths, a level maths, physics, and chemistry. i swear those subjects will kill me if i were to take them!! i'll go berserk!

one secret to share with you- i had mushroom head all the way frm pri school to sec2.
i didn't noe how i survived tt?! hurhur
i looked awfully nerd and disgusting.
whew tt was 'used-to-be' and not now.

i dunno wht is wrong with my family today.

daddy shows attitude and mum keep grumbling away and worse sis was snappy to me!

are they all sick in their head>?

get me out of this sick place. pissed off

my term test starts tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun have holiday even on youth day?
worse still i've test tmr!
wth!

i'm gonna write a letter to PM!
firstly we should have a break on youth day.
secondly, why do poly students have to pay adult fare for public transport (its eating into my allowance)!?
thirdly... i haven't tot of any i'm just wanna compliant cox i'm bored.

oh dear i've to go! i'm not done with my revision yet?!

*running off*
yea!5 days to my BIG day! yep yep hoRRay!!

(oh anyway i hate tt intermolecular force chapter! sux! booooooooooooooooo0)

i'm feeling so bored and empty.
i noe i have friends in school but we aren't close and there is absolutely no one i can talk to! i'm not saying the stupid kind of talking cock in school cox i always does tt.
sis dun talk those kind of stuff with me, mum and dad too. now all my sec school friends are away and busy with their own stuffs! i'm all alone!
but even when i've the chance to meet my sec school frinds, mum bug me home when its still so early?! you noe my school ends at 6!! i can't possibly reach town within a few mins and come home at ard 7 or 8!

later on i've got tut all the way to 6 again and i'll be back home to rush through my notes for the coming term test next week.
what kind of life is this?
homework+stress-quality time-shopping+nagging-loneliness-friends=mental breakdown!

oh noooooooooooo!! i miss the great singapore sale! and i haven been to town for months!

oh pls... sob sob sob.. someone pls!

uh huh and my b'day is coming! but i'm not excited at all. cox there is term test on my b'day.
you noe sometimes i wish my b'day is ard the corner but sometimes i hate b'day.
my parents dun really celerbrate b'day for me. no b'day cake whatsoever.
every year i only reach home in disappointment cox it seemed like a normal day.
well my friends are great, they buy me cake and presents! thank you i love ya all.

depressed* bye*