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she's too beautiful to resist. you love her too?

hurgh i was really an irritating skinny pole. i went all the way to the front when i saw someone standing at the bloody coo coo patch of spot where i always wait for taxis. well, i got to board first before her! neh neh ni boo boo! but i bet she must be cursing me cox she's already sweating like someone just pee-ed on her head and i snatched the taxi from her! sorry la singaporeans mah! i've learnt to be a wise after all!

and finally,i alighted @ the army market to search for the shop called The-Peep-Hole.yes i went all the way there just for the shop. but crap la i went round and round the hot and filthy place before i get to my dear dear place where i like to buy Ts from. lol wat a small world to have caught fello yani,humin,&gekkim there too:) nice bumping into them @ such kind of place.

link-> http://www.the-peep-hole.com happy browsing!

then since i'm so alone and now where to go in middle of the noon, i hopped on my second cab to holland V! a lot of foodies there like coffee beans, bread talk, crystal jade, nydc, bars and lots more! its a purr-fect place for lovey dovey couples! really! but i think its better to go at night rather than in the hot sunny day, or else the dou will turn out like two sticks of melted ice-creams. hah! then i browsed the area with one cup of ice blended espresso on my hand and tissue to wipe off the sweat, on another. hmmm 1/6 of the pple u see are ang-mohs so i hope it won't be another ideal place for terrorist to blast!! hahaha nuts!

AH! pet shops! i swear there's many of them. i even saw a shop keeper transporting three puppies from one shop to another. they're soooooo cute with their round tummy full of milk i guess *chuckles* and their small tiny tail, not longer than my last finger, wagging and flapping crazily!! VOILAAA!! too cute, i can't help gluing my eyes on them!

but then if you're not there for alcohols, food but shopping, you'd be disappointed la cox there aren't much to shop for other than beads, and erm sex TOYS!! yah there's a condom shop there on the second level of a particular mall. lol strictly above 18-gals and boys! hahaha but i took a peep outside and hurried off. colourful rubbers indeed!

than guess what i feaking hell walked like 1 mile and ended up among the flats but just couldn't find the MRT station to go home. but i was pretty sure i can find my way cox i hate to ask for directions. lik i was stranded in the maze block, i strolled and tire myself out til i get to where i tot should be near and continued on to test my luck. i tell you i must be the smartest gal on earth to look up and check for tall building which i hope is the MOE building cox the mrt is just around tt area. ai yah child's play la! chicken feet! hurh! i found my way there finally! wahhhhhh clever gal. clap clap clap**

ok la ok la i noe i darn bhb here but i'm just so proud of myself! heeeheee :)

have u seen a dog so afraid of heights? y'day night the thunder storm was so loud, my hum-qi doggy was shivering away and hiding her tail in between her legs hurgh. wat's more, she tried to climb the stairs up (cox we're upstaris) but finally she gave up from going any further at the fifth step, so mum have to coax her down step by step by grabing her two front legs and doggy wobble down like an old woman. so fuh-nie!

finally! i'm a pround owner of a brown pants, heehee not the first one i've got but still i love it down to each & every stitch and thread its made of. poof! but i can't make a possession of all stuffs tt caught my very eye. sobs and i saw my fav zara checked bag! its still there and i want it dearly! ha fat hope la cox its gonna make my wallet surrrender. then ade and mich were nagging at me to give up on tt bag. hummp!!

when i was on the train to city hall, ade and i were pulling and tugging one another lol. then i saw a stupid gal laughing at us and i swear i'm boiling inside. i wanna fight! i wanna pull her nipple off! i wanna let my vulgarities poured onto her and see her cry! eh but nothing. nothing happened cox angel sister managed calm me down.

kk my eye's droopy now. NAP! bye bye friends :)

afternoon's gone with the rain again, hopefully tmr won't so i can slip to suntec with ade for our brown pants heehee. today, i went for coffee again and brought back a slice of cheese cake for mummy!

oh btw here's something funny. have you heard the announcement when taking the train? i can't catch wat the person's trying to say. all i heard was: for ur safety, pls do not push the pores... weird. but obviously i got the wrong one. my sis's even worse. she asked if i've heard it saying; for safety reasons, pls do not push the BALLS!! holy crap!

funny? not funny? okie nvm, take a train and hear it for urself.

sigh. a few days ago i had a dream and til now it still stays vividly at the corner of my head. i'm not a person who often dream but once i did, its always something got to do with misfortune and seemingly real! those fantasy and fairy tales ones are long been over when i was a kid. there was a time when i keep dreaming bout my jumping off a building. i had a couple more of tt sort of dream with diff scenario but same ending-committing suicide. i'm not kidding. its freaking me out and truely disturbing enough to make me shiver. freaky but coincidentally, a week or so, i was late for remedial lesson and when i woke up and found a lot of missed calls from mich(my classmate). she dreamt of me coming back in spirit, after i passed away, to look for her. i was in a pity state. she told my tt before i could communicate with her, a cleaner chased me off and i disappeared! gawd! scary hoh. ugh but come on la dream only what.

ok ok back to the dream i had last few days. i dreamt of myself, walking on the over head-bridge and feeling my stomach. it all started with tt picture and me already knowing tt i'm pregnant. i was supposedly confused and distraught but i was calm. well, a lot of worries crossed my mind about an unmarried 17 year old teenage school gal. my stomach was already starting to grow with a 4 months old baby. funny how i was thinking bout breaking the news of what i'm carrying, to my parents. then about my health, and my friends. will they shun away from me? and luckily i didn't even dream about who's tt fucking father. luckily i didn't dream of tt part or else if it happened to be someone i know?! hurgh horrible! horrible horrible!!

saying it out is much better then keeping this odd dream to myself. spooky yea? but ya know, what u dream will nv happen. phew!

our family has this going on for years- sunday gatherings for dinner. my parents are the one who prepare the food without fail everyweek. imagine the amount of money being thrown in over the years for fuel, food, and cleaning?

one by one, my relatives arrive at our hs around 6, settling around in the living room but none offered to help in the kitchen. then when the the food is done, they'll all gather around the dining table but Most or NONE have the courtesy to ask the one who had spent so much efford to prepared the food. fine! we are the owner and you're the guest, so we are suppose to serve you guys right? nvm be sitted and enjoy ur dinner! but what made mad me hopping mad was tt mum was left with NO PLACE to sit but to wait for the guest to have their's first before mum can squeeze in for her dinnera(all along me and my sis take ur plates and eat in the living room).

why should mum end up having to wait for them to finish their food before she can has her's? why can't the freaking younger generations give up their place and let mum have her dinner?

UNGRACEFUL?! and their parents dun even care! hurgh no wonder!

but this is not the first time. for if it is the first time, i might have tot they didn't know tt the owner has NO sit. greedy! selfish! bloody ass big fuckers who only know how to eat!

and dun be surprised. before we had a maid, mum was the one who wash all the dishes!

dun think me petty. they have no right to let my mum wash! they had their food, WASH UR OWN FREAKING BOWLS!

i'm soooooo ashamed to have relatives like them. so they think they deserve the enjoyment and others to sweat and work for them. good ah good........ i have nothing much to say. i dun regard them as relatives. when there's trouble, they're the one who shun away. when there's money, they noe how to suck up. ha poor lil fellows i pity them like dogs- let them have their food.

fed up no.1: i can't stand pple who's over helpful, oh tt's kinda vague, lets say they're pushy. just bloody hell fuck off and dun get into my way. ha i'll be smiling but at the back of my mind, i feel like punching them down on the floor and storm off. nvm bout tt. i dun have much to say actually but i've to voice out tt its not my pleasure to entertain or spare my presious time on them, full stop.

fed up no.2: today sis made her collection from zara. i dun mind telling you tt i find their attitude sucks! they dun smile at you like some coo coo for the sake of making their customers happy. they frown all the time. i happen to knock onto one lady staff tt time cox i was carrying a big bag. she stared at my even when i apologied repeatedly, and bowing my head to show my GREATEST sorrow for causing her blood pressure to rise. she even made the tsk sound right onto LIM BIE's face! what the FFFF! not enough? she rolled her bloody eyes at me! BITCH! HAh HAh pms ah?! want some drugs ladie? hurgh..big deal.

fed up no 3: dun throw the shoe onto the floor when you wanna try e shoe cox its just not very pleasant, unless you're down with osteoporosis( whatever you spell it), too fat to bend down or you're a GUY. izzit so hard to place tt shoe on the ground gently? my sis blurted out at me saying: who cares anyway! ya she's right, only i care so much about all these stupid things or else i wouldn't be compalining so much heehee.

oh freak i almost fell off the chair! really. ha its not like i have a big butt or something. see, the more i dun move, the more clumsy i get. and listen up! i haven walk more than 200 meters away from my house for a week+ , breaking my own record ke ke ke. i'm worse than my grandma.

yes i should get a life! get out and breath the wonderful polluted air yeh?

anyways are you guys active nightlife animals? i haven imagine how its like to go clubbing or pubbing though its darn popular nowadays. of cox i'm curious to pick up these social activity for experience but i dun think i'm hiao enough for those. first and for most its for pple who are sexually active and need a person to fuck or tirsty for a drink or flirt and what more? clubbing is so associated with bad boy and sluts. i'm not ready for tt! am i stereotype? but i guess one day i'll get in and taste how wonderful a nite can be in a hall with blasting noise and DJs and desperste sexy ladies and hungs. then i'll return home with a delicious nicotine smell clinging on my body ha. talking bout smoking. damn its so bloody tempting. not becox some of my friends are hooked so i wanna try too but personally, i tot tt its fun having smoke flying around you like satans. my dad's a smoker for decades. we've tried all tt we can to persuade him to quit. lol possible? unfruitful of cox. its almost just as hard to kill a friend of years. almost all cases of tobacco addiction begin in the teenage years or earlier. whatever rubbish ecxuse for a huff and a puff, the chance of becoming addicted is too great. so i won't kiss a cigarette neither will i suck it lovingly for more. if only people can resist. but honestly whenever dad takes a puff, i feel comfortable. sometimes i frown when ppel walking in front of me exhale but sometimes i'm inhale after them and fell for it. ewwwwww i can picture their lungs black and sticky with tar.

bloody weather! i wanna go out and move around! i dun want all my veins and arteries to get blocked up and die! woo i tell ya the rainy weather is just perrrfect for you to sleep! but i'd too much ZZZzz my tummy is rumbling for food. i'm thinking of getting honey stars and HL milk for my tea break! ice milo? ice tea? wooo habba habba!!

i keep thinking bout going suntec cox i wanna get a bottle of nail polish from the cart and a fake but really nice watch and a pair earrings heehee!! i tell ya woman can survive with fake watch but guys have to get real blink blink watch. right?! yes!

i might as well forget bout trading in my old phone for e new one cox i can nv save up tt much. i would rather i get get myself one more decent pants. oh brown pants is very IN now. dunno why but i tot its damn cool. i must get myself one this holiday.

these few days i limit myself from moving too much, like a cat, so tt i can gain weight!! hahaha weird? i think it works! i hope so?

i had a super duper long ZZzz until 1pm when dad kicked my butt, asking me to have lunch. i just need to know why daddy can't (for god sake) wake me up gently instead of kicking me!! wah lao! what is this man? giving me a shock out of my life la.

okie nvm then i took my own sweet time to wash up cox i bet evryone had their lunch except me again. bloody ass, even the maid had her lunch! i haven't! !@#%^&^%$#@$ i ate like i'm dieting. i had two slices of some kind of veg and half bowl of rice and TV hahaha!! miserable set of meal!

help! my hair seems to get longer and out of shape again! i hate bad hair days. ugh and i must tell you pple i dun like to play with young kids. i dunno what i can do to entertain them other then making funny stupid sound and action. oh *slap my face* tt's soo soo soo silly! my cousins are coming over today again, bringing 5 kids to our house upside down.

my sis will play with them but count me out! i've got a weak heart. you know how what kids do?! they'll get so excited they scream and scream on top of their voices, they run about as if they're gonna fall or something and they pop anything into thier mouth like evrything they see are sweets!! looking after them is not much a diff to me as running 2.4km. scary!

oh may be years later i'll grow to like kids but right now they're just like little demons. haah haah wooo i love the weather today cox its chilling and windy!

just now i just wanted to help dad fry the dumplings but i did a 'GREAT' job man! clap your hands ladies and gentlemen! it turned out to be like fried carrot cakes! but good try la huh dun mark me down becox of tt. i CAN cook!

oh my i want an answer to why mum can rattle on and on and on. i wish i have the power to tune it on and off whenever i want, cox it just gets so irritating at times when you dun wanna hear a single sound at all. something is troubling me lately. i can't figure out the reason why i crave for slow songs and quiet moments. then i seem to prefer chinese songs once again. its not those ah lians 5566, nor do i like to hear the squeaky voiced SHE or the forever changing pop queen: jolin shit! now my mp3 is fully loaded with mandarin songs from sandy lam, zheng zong ji, david tao and ah mei. yes old songs. call me cheena. tt's why i dun share my ear phones becox i'm concious of it, so i kept it to myself. my body seem to detest something loud. it sets me boiling and mood swings rapture. but i know after a while i'll keep those cheena songs away from me and go back for my power 98. ha i think the hormones are behind all these.

you know i just peeped at my neighbours living in front of us? at 8plus i saw the boy returning home. at 9 plus i saw the dad walking around in his bedroom with only the boxers on. then now the loghts are off and god knows what they're doing. lol comeon think of some cheeky crook stuffs. they moved in for a month already and i haven chack them out. i mean chat with them. my curiosity is burning fiercely inside everytime i hear their gate or happen to see anything moving tt draws my attention. there's nothing more interesting then observing others;)

ah gosh sis placed the ME to YOU bear on her table top. how sweet! ting*2 from b.f! ooo talking about b.f! i met up with ade, mich and seeping this afternoon for lunch and then we skipped the shopping part for coffee and we chatted bout each other. 2 out of 4 is attached and i guess ade's gonna have one sooner or later teehee oh pls pretty gals won't be missed by guys rite? then we slipped our topics to their ex b.fs. haha bittersweet stories kept me thinking how the other parties' heart shatter into pieces becox someone took their place. ugh but so long as they are meant for each other, they'll be back to each other!

valen you're my sweetest! yes, yes whenever i see any stuffs tt have gt to do with st. nics the first thing tt comes to my mind is yoU. please accept my long distant hug! lol dah bao!

oh ya i saw chubby boy at taka today! dun think he recognise me at all la! he looks the same anyway with his rosy cheek:)

mum bought me a pants from esprit haahaa!! but i wished she could buy a new bag and another pants and a top from zara. she said i should ask dad for money! booohooo

this brown pants from zara is damn nice! but they dun have my 32 size, the smallest they have for skirts and pants are 34. cheee idiotic!!

and today, i spotted quite a number of pple hanging they ipod nano proudly upon their chest like a branded necklace. but somehow when i see a school girl carrying it, i tot she was just trying to show off. but when it comes to a guy, i tot its so coOl! sexist me haahaa!! anyway if i do own one, i'll keep it savely inside my handbag just in case some bloody green eye monster wanna grab it for me! lol i know its stupid la cox ironically pple buy nano to show off, tt's the point of buying it;eh from my point of view. ipod mini is no big deal now so you can wave it around wherever you like and pple won't even give a damn lol. ai ya but ipod is still a better deal then any other mp3s around.

oh and the pic above is for ade :)

weeeheee i'm back from my 4b class chalet. i would say its a nice concoction of feelings bout this outing,if you were to ask, nontheless i simply love them to bits. and then like all the others i suffered from post-chalet syndrom. i gave myself a good scrub and fall onto my soft bed, hugging my teddy bear to sleep. i slept til lunch is ready for me and gobbled down half a bowl of rice before my eyelids start to flick too often again and i got back to sleep right after munching.

i realise i've been dishonest to myself. i've been hiding and denying things from myself. i'm a liar! a big fat liar!i find myself listening to the songs tt used to heal me. then i know i'm not alright..

i went to body shop warehouse sale today and damn it the things there are soooooo cheap. please go if u guys are free cox this last til the 9th only. its at the convention centre level 4! lolx

i bought my sis a lotion for her birthday hahaha yes yes cheapo me! i'm so broke can?! actually i feel like going back to buy more stuffs oh gosh its giving me the itchy feeling again. happy shopping!

poof! i'm a light sleeper. i can't get into sleep for nuts and luckily radio accompanied me til the wee hours before i drop dead. i sang along, and moved my fingers along with the tunes lolx. and i love listening to power 98's evening DJs. they're darn funny! i turn on the radio when i bathe and dun think i'm nuts if u hear me laughing inside the toilet hahahaha. crazy. radio is my life:)

why am i so skinny? i started to shed of my weight and grew really thin at the beginning of pri school. why? becox having meal to me is a horrible thing. mum will be grumbling away, making me shiver and feel like puking everything out! she's still good at making me afraid of her. i obey to my curfew. if there is excuses like i'm gonna be out with my friends, she'll bug me with calls to be back home as soon as possible. i nv had fun, knowing tt she'll phone me again if i'm late. i shan't deny tt i hate the way she make things rite becox she thinks it rite!

y'day nite she gave me a final said tt i shall not stay over for my class chalet! then what for?! i might as well dun go! what for going for a bbq and be back at like 8plus which i think tt is the latest she'll allow me. why the fuck go when bbq starts at evening time which means i'll only have one or two hours to spend!

then i went out with juli y'day and i told dad i won't be back for dinner. i did tt just to have an hour more time with me friend. btw tt's 7 'o'clock if i'll not be back for dinner. if i'm coming back for dinner, tt'll be 6! i did not escape inviting a scolding from her when i'm back.

at the age of 17, who won't be screaming mad for freedom! last nite i returned a call to my friend inside the TOILET becox i know she'll me angry with me of she catch me talking on the phone in the middle of the nite. then she knock on the door, saying i should put down the phone. i did as told!

dun blame me for being a chicken. for my whole life, i've been living under an eagle eye. for my whole life, i'll be always blaming her for my lack of social cycle.

i won't forgive her for my horrible life. nv!

meet up with juli finally! hahaha had fun knowing more bout RCG hah!!!

tt's all.. :)

lolx lame

i'm mad over zara's chequered sling bag tt is meant for guys!

i saw it last fri but ever since i've fallen in love on it i keep thinking bout it like i used to think about new handphones. this is crazy! its 99bucks!

but i think i'm gonna get before all the guys get them! hah

oh ya and u know body shop's lip gloss packed in little cute round container? the strwberry flavour is out again! oh man i swear its the best gloss i've ever used. forget about those stupid gloss u bough, just chuck them all away and get the body's shop strwberry flavoured lip gloss! cox before u know it, its off the shelves again. its 8.90 only! thrust me its good!

hahaha

phew its driving me nuts when my wallet is tight. why ain't my parents some rich ass working freak who has no time to care bout me so stuffs me with money! lolx ooops

i think the weather is mad with sudden showers then gets real hot then rains again. !@#&!?!
y'day mich and i wanted to chill out at holland .v but in the end we tot we can be back again some other time and we slipped to town again. i took pics of her at coffee club express in wisma atria heehee and me fav bag..cool! and bloody ass, i saw guy carrying a smaller version of my bag while i'm using the bigger one! wah lao guy should get the bigger one la!!!