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its really no fun when i see pple playing around and i have school!

but anyways cox we're odd balls- poly students. darn right! we are meant to be DIFFERENT from norms school. isn't it why we dun wear uniforms too?

but i would rather i have a uniform like the JCs cox there's so much fun going against the rules on proper dressing, i'm saying. short pom pom skirts, stringed shirt, colourful hairs and studs all over!

alright btw today's food chem practical was a whole big mess becox the teachers changed the solution and we can't get the accurate calculation for our experiment.

this is wat i call a total WASTE of TIME! fancy spending 3 hours on something tt's gonna come out wrong!

nonsense!

met up with ade again and she taught me accounts cox my test is coming up. if she's not gonna teach me, i'll happily fail my test and cry!

but, My! i kept day dreaming and ended up listening and sang along with the songs tt Coffee bean played. then she had to repeat all over again for the sake of me. or else at times, i'll interrup and talk rubbish or do silly things. she was damn patient with me. so i conclude tt i loooovvveee ade soooo much i want her to be placed at the top top top list of the most wanted person in my life. lol oh no, seriously she is really my life long buddy since pri school. i'm sooo used to her, she can even be part of me, like my hands or legs. hurgh what a comparism but quite true ya:)

sigh...

i'm a fickle minded person. now tt the lecturers are telling us more bout how our future prospect will be like, i'm a lil worried.

firstly, the starting pay will be low and expect it to be low even for the years to come. we just won't earn big bucks and retire early. unless, i come out with a new product like MILO!! or?! get hired by footballers like manchester to plan for their diet!

secondly, uni is wat i'm heading to after i graguate from poly(hopefully i can fulfill the requirements to further studies). and since singapore uni doesn't offer much of what i'm studying, i'll have to go overseas. and if i were to be going there, i dunno how life will be like for me. i have no idea solely becox all along i wasn't really prepared to be independent, let alone flying to some place with a diff culture.

thirdly, should i be a nutritionist, a research and development executive, a service watever shit i'll have to choose to study after this sem.

forthly, will i need to frequent overseas to work?

there's a whole lot of doubts misting my directions right now.

but still, its not the time to worry i suppose.

GET BACK TO WORK!!!

aim for this sem's GPA first before i even think about my future. 9.21pm, 281105

i like this song!!!

CRAIG DAVID LYRICS

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this thing drag on so long(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to meI don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

O oooOooOoOoo

pokey poke ade's eye

seeping tot i looked like this thing! hurhur..

k no joke. we just wana to get a proper one done.

my gang once again:) celerbrating jocelyn's 17th birthday!

mich and me

random viewing on the friendster and saw this awful picture uploaded by this guy. horrid pics totally freak me off with boy kissin boy. advise: nv get too high in clubs or get ur ass burnt

this woman totally sux with her 'beautiful dressings'. can someone pass me a bag cox i wanna puke!

and this guy has long and sexy hair...oh man check it out la!
why do pple in my school looks so erm 'SPECIAL"!!

i bluffed through my accounts tutorial lesson, knowing only a small fraction of the lecture i attended. and bloody hell next week i've got a test on accounts?!

i dunno anything!

so ADE pls pls pls teach me accounts on mon when we meet up again, pls!

i promise to treat u drinks can! my chance of passing depends solely on you!

oh yes tmr's jocelyn's birthday so i'm gonna wish her a BIG FAT HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY here!!

i dun even noe if she'll ever gonna visit my blog?! hurgh!

anyhows we got a lighter and a clutch handbag!! hope she likes them cox i ponned 3 lectures to shop for her b'day gift, or else when can i ever squeeze out time to shop! its the tot tt counts r againright?? this small lil gal is darn naughty. you're nv gonna force her to study hai ya!!

fish! test tmr and i'm still half way done. i've to scram back fast. ha i'm such a last min loser can! i hope i can finish before my brain shuts down or my eye lid crush down!! holy molly! see you guys!

11.08pm, 241105 :)

THE PUSSYCAT DOLLS

"Stickwitu"

I don't want to go another day

So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind

Seems like everybody is breaking up

Throwing their love away

I know I got a good thing right here

That's why I say

(Hey)Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with youForever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you

My baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

I don't want to go another day

So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind

See the way we ride

In our privated lives

Ain't nobody getting in between

I want you to know that you're the only one for me

And I say

Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you

Forever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you

My baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

And now

Ain't nothing else I can need

And now

I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me

I got youWe'll be making love endlessly

I'm with youBaby, you're with me

So don't you worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me

And that's all that counts

So don't you worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me

And that's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you

Forever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you

My baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you

ForeverNobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with youMy baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

7.54pm, 231105

poor bugger me. i just realise there's another microbiology test coming out this fri. what the! did i not pay attention in class or what. nvm mug like shit this few days and cure my dark eye circles later, hopefully. but i guess its a bit hard cox i'm a 'reputable' lazy bum. slap me, pinch me, kick me; mummy. will you?

anyways i had coffee with ade today and she treated me prata um teh-peng and made my stomach happy:)

then she made me cracked up lik hell, i feel like puking out all tt i've eaten. when u're full in there, dun ever laugh so hard. you'll feel terrible!! eh otherwise its only me who is WEAK.

btw, i think there's no harm saying this too many times: i treasure the friendship we share, JULI!

i swaer. som-pah!!

then again at 10.47pm, on the 211105 ;0 nitex everybody!

i can sleep all i want on saturdays, like a piglet, til the sun shines on my butt! oh well- so sad but true, i'm up to nothing this sat perhaps notes and worksheets shall keep me busy this weekend then. anyways, there're gonna be a test this wed so i'll be a good gal this weekend!

school's pretty the same all day round. other than the teacher(the pic) who sat in to watch over us during maths lects, things would be better. we're not in the main LT and apparently students tend to chat more but this so called Dr. likes to make our life difficult. hello there, no teachers scream at us in poly anymore but she does! believe me, she is so irritating i just wanna curse her to fall whenever she stomp up or down the stairs. won't she just go away since we drive her adrenaline up so high she can't stand us. correct?! so its reasonable to call her a dumb nosey bugger, am i right? geez i'm bad.

yet another problem though, my microbiology teacher has got such a thick tamil accent i dun catch what she's saying! especially this modules when names (of bacteria, virus, fungi and long terms) are as concern, its harder for me to interpret her and get the right pronunciation! i dun even understand the lango coming out of her mouth! paying attention is already so hard for me and now listening to her lesson is a chore!! spare a tot for me, i'm not a racist but this has to be justified- i want another teacher to replace her, or to have me failing badly. i'm very bad at picking up points and srew them into my brain cells.btw i got a sound clip recorded while she was giving her lesson but too bad i dunno how to link it to my entry or else, u can hear and noe how hard i'm trying.

and til then tt is all i have to complian :p 12.40pm, 191105

today's all tutorials and labs which last from 10 in the morning til 6 with only some lil breaks in between.

i'm lucky tt i could have my lunch cox microbiology lab ends earlier and i couldn't be happier to have something in my stomach before i continue.

and i have a lot to say bout my accounts teacher. she is toooooooooo kind to be an educator in poly. fristly, she don't shout, she keeps apologising, she's afraid to provoke students, she's soft, slow, toooooo patient, too motherly, and long winded to qualify.

u either get touched by her sincerity or step over her head and pee, which of cox most chose to be the latter.

we ruled over her and did whatever we liked!

HUR HUR HUR! -tt's and evil chuckle mind u-

today she had to make a trip back to the office at business block cox she took the wrong key for our tut classroom. then 15 mins' gone like tt. she rushed back like she had ran her way here for us. oh my gawd can someone pls tell her tt all the door keys are the same for the classrooms? all she needs to do is to ask for the key from some other teachers next door.

and how fun! we stood there and watch her go PAI SEH in front of her students.

she's a 60plus old woman nehhhhhh.

next time i'm gonna take a pic of her cox she looks like a rabbit. fair and innocent looking and on top of tt, she has rabbit teeth!!! ai yooooooo

ZZZZzzz 12.58pm, 171105

i sat in for lectures all alone. the bunch of friends whom i hang out with will nv reach before lessons. i used to text them and ask if they're reaching so i'll see if i wanna wait for them to go in together or chop sits for them. then after a couple of occasions of trying ta book places when the lect is so full tt pple are sitting on steps as the last resort. i'm guilty and had to ask them to please take up the sits i'd selfishly taken up for them.

u noe how fed up it is. i'm starting to lose some nerves and grumble at them for coming late. they brushed my kindness for reminding as a passing comments. i'm done with it. i hate their heck care attitudes. i'm so bothered by having to be with myself when they're not there. i have my classmates but they kinda dun mix with me tt much unless 'tt guy' is there. a smile or a simple gesture is the most they can give. i can't live without friends! i'm totally dependent on friends to make me smile.

usually in a group of three, one is bound to be alone. and see? i'm the one! further more, they share almost the same personality! i'm the odd one out for god sake.

i know perfectly well what kind of person i am. rejection drives me nuts and i'll be prone to mood swings and depression. not tt severe though but tt all invites mental torture! how is school life gonna be like when the most simple parties u rely on is slowly seeing ur presence as thin air.

fine. our friendship is going on fine actually. no internal conflicts, not unhappiness whatsoever. sometimes pple do get a lil sensitive. who don't?! but seriously, i'm feeling left out and secretly crying for some attention. i tag with seng guan(classmate) most of the time when they're not around. but pple think me clinging to him. i don't! we are good friends only. he has a galfriend and some pple see it as some fucking intruding bitchy business.

oh please.

sharon was asking me this morning when we're all sitting on da benches. she was with her group and i was with seng. then there's some other cliques beside my bench as well. seng was chatting with his peeps. i sat there with my handphone held on my hands and playing some dumb games to kill boredom and feeling of loneliness.

she said: where's ur brennagh and jodie

me: eh CDS?! they went off for tut

she: really? u're alone this morning

me: ha... (fake laugh)

she: u guys qurrelled?

me: NO! we didn't! why did u say tt?!

she: i tot so what

me: eh ok...

8.36pm, 161105

met up with juju today for facials and so coincidentally she tot she saw noel but of cox its him! i was too happy to shout out his name. he turned round and was a lil too surprised to answer for a moment.

noel, as usual, is da gentleman. he asked juli bout heng yeong bla bla then telling us valen is coming back this dec... lol its just so fun but a short chat with him. oh yeah! we're gonna meet up again soon!

so there's me and juli lying there enjoying the classical music. she had her's first so i closed my eyes and waited but soon i fell asleep. its was until the electric- tsk tsk tsk sound was applied on ju's face tt woke me up. after tt its my turn. lol now my face is all red and sore but no black heads, so no worries!

i accompanied ju to flag a cab before i figure my way home. guess what? i got on the bus but becox i hav no sense of direction, i ended up in AMK instead of HOUGANG. ugh why do i always have to end my blog proclaiming bout being big fat loser- i headed for the wrong direction.

updated on 141105, at 8.42pm

woke up late again and remembered tt sis wanted to buy me breakfast but in the end she woke up late too. anyways while i was waiting for bunch, i read da sunday times. then there was this news on transsexual bride. omg 'she' rejected his proposal 6 times but finally accepted it when the guy wrote 'her' a letter with his blood. yucks! why should he wanna do such morbid stuffs. btw i'm curious how gays satisfy themselves. uh huh i've heard about the dog position to get some pleasure but but but won't it hurt?! ok ok i'll stop it. as long as their happy -swollow- i have no comments -shiver-...nevertheless i still think its a very degrading thing to do, as a man kind. seriusly, its drilling a hole in my head.

and yet another article tt caught my attention bout annabel chong. i swear i haven heard stuffs on how she got popular. i have no idea who-the-hell and what she'd done tt got her famous until i come across this; what i tot is too embarassing to mention. she had sex with 251 man in 10 hours! orhhh...yes its this something i didn't know bout her. u think its hot? i think its super gross to tt extent tt i rather she kill herself. i dunno if she bled but apparently 251 times is too much, too drama, too unbelivable, too painful and ohhhhhhh my shut up!

whatever the two i've read today, it doesn't really have much an impact. i just tot they're interesting and to voice out my disapproval to tt of a kind i'll nv do. fine, cut tt crap. is there anyone who's planning to watch The Exortism of Emily Rose? i'm not a movie craze person but this is what a person, who would rather stay at home and not step into a movie theathre, will watch. but then again i feel too chickened out to watch with tt big screen tt make things come up 100 times scarier than from a DVD player. yes yes i'm a loser... i'll bring my ear plug to minimise all the eerie sound effects and a book to shut off any parts tt i feel will make me pee. lol no food or drinks too, just in case i puke. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

updated at 3.28pm, 131105

my new friend onion!! b'day-11-11-05 and her friend- fluff!

ade and i got this out of fun cox we're too insane tt time to think carefully.

we just laughed and laughed and laughed so much i have to gasp for air.

onion onion onion onion onion. call me onion!

oh and ade got approached by zhong qing! wah lao....

i gotta tell you tt 'metro' is a real flirt. anyway who won't if he was to be born with tt look. what a 'vase'!!

ok today's school is fine and slack and nothing better to do cox its the first week of a new sem and its always tt draggy until things get warm up in a couple of weeks. yes, and by then i'll be too busy for myself. ZzzzZZ u noe those chosing of the class head and vice pple bla bla, intro of our new modules, teaching schedule for this sem, projects, bla bla. and i have test on christmas day! izzit? ya la i think i have! i dou-wan!

btw 10-11-05- its brennagh's birthday today and i forgot to bring her present to school! i so wanna slap myself. nvm she was understanding enough to dismiss my silly excuse. i bought her a pair of earrings from perlini's silver after touring round tampanis mall for bout 2 hours! hurhur crazy nuts.

ok i have nothing interesting to blabber here now. school is so 'interesting'! bye for now then.

updated on 9.33pm, 101105

snores i'm too tired to blog. i had a whole day of lecture since 8am to 7pm and its freaking using up my energy to the last bit. ha! and becox by the time when we have our last lect at 6, lots of them are almost dosing off. but crap! my friends and i were lik laughing away at a guy who is my friend's friend. when i turn round and saw him paying his full attention, i was truely amazed and asked them to looks at him( cox u should expect pple to be half dead by then) but the next moment he was actually sleeping with his head slowly tilting down. ok not funny but its was so cartoon i couldn't help laughing. it was like the next sec his attention just went off like a snap. then there was another malay gal who wore a scaf and laid her face on her bag and slept. if it wasn't my friend telling me to look at her i would have tot it was two bags lying on the table. ai ya if only i can take a shot of those funny pple.

btw i must tell u how lucky i am today too cox metro is in the same CDS(cross disciplinary subject) as me. omg lik among all the others he chose this?! hah! soo sorry i was so insane seeing metro i kept beating my friend. but no, after awhile i swear i was listening to the lect zZzzZZz

snores again at 8.46, 081105

surprise! i'm done with my new blog skin. after using the last one for quite some time, i'm tired of it so did some changing of new image! so how was it? i think its interesting la and so pls tell me if you really got tricked and tot my blog has been moved! anyways tt's all bout what i have done today. what a waste of time. so i'll be back tmr :) tmr's my first day of sem 2! omg save me...lecture whole day from 8am to 5pm! i think i'll have to go back to the whole pocky and sweets to survive throughout them.

yawned at 9.34pm, 071105

a simple but fantabulous lil gathering y'day with fellow mates was truely appriciated. i don't noe about being a good host cox somebody blamed me for whipping up some nasty, hard to swallow ice lemon tea i brewed. ha! apologies for tt.

i can nv tell u guys how much those meeting out once in a while is so fun becox we're all crappy pple. then we'll wrack up some fond memories which gives me a sugar sweet coating tt lingers. the stupidness and childishness tt still stays even after how much we'd changed. at least its this few years tt we grew up together tt strenghtened the bond. loads of stories, loads of laughters and tears..and then when we all sit together, i feel like i'm having one big family. all and all i hope even years later, we can still stay the way 4B is; i truely wish so.

today's special occasion was grand with those dong chiang dong chiang all the way to our door step. erm seriously, i dun mean to be rude but the traditions are kinda not a thing for me. but grandpa was happy and proud and so i'm happy and proud too! so finally daddy took down those decorations, they hung up y'day morning, which was really relieving. i can't stand a big red clothe hanging at my way when i'm at the door. so attention seeking but not the kind of attention i want to get. anyways tt pic was taken with my niece Glenda. she cute? lol she likes to taken with her funny faces when pple're posing nicely:) oh yea andi made her wear my specs and quickly shot a pic! heh now i'm the naughty one..

screamed at 061105,10.53pm

i freaking hate the look of my house right now. and best! i'm bringing my friends over tonight wtf! where am i gonna hide my face. utterly disgusted!

tents up for partie! nah not for my party but some other occasions. but mum was so in a good mood, she offered sis and i to bring my friend over for a hovoc time before my school starts on mon, since we can make a good use out of it. i was bloody hell excited i phoned my friends over if their free on sat! well it just so happen tt they're all booked for work. so fine, its over. i mean i can't get them to take a off for me just for an out-of-fun drink chat at my house. say i'm rather disappointed actually but duh who won't rite? nontheless its a really nice chance cox its the first time mum's so happening. well well. i had all da cursings. oh nvm, i had enough for the day cox today's a tiring one.

doggy's had a good catch! she literally caught a mouse in da kitchen! tt's totally freaking me and mum out! we were like shouting at each other to stop tt dog. so i grabbed a broom and hit doggy's ass. didn't work. i shouted in a loud command. it didin't work. so yes the mouse died under its teeth and claws. i can't wait to throw tt yucky thing away. daddy's the one to use a chacoal tongs, trying to snatch tt mouse off from my dog. doggy wouldn't allow dad to take tt off. she laid on the floor and i guess she' was determined to end tt bugger's life before she let it go. then i was standing there with my mouth cover cox i was so grossed out, seeing the cruel side of my dog. okie the thing had it last breath under my dog's paw and dad picked its dead body up int a bag and double wrapped it. we had to bathe the dog! she was so dirty and yucky! eeeeeee

but after her bath, she still look just as cute. ha! she had her dinner and fun with us :)

she's happy with her reward and we're happy with a mouse free kitchen.

oh! but i super sad over my lost party!

hahaha i hate the taste of carlsberg or tigar beer. i still prefer those sweet like fruit juice vodka. drinking beer is like drinking thick black coffee without milk and sugar. yucks. sis's drinking the beer and i took a few sip from her. eeeww look at how my face screw up in to a wrinkled ball.

alright whatever i dun drink tt much to even talk about tt.

my whole face is so looking ugly with those fucking pimples popping out! and so i swaer i have to treat them like queen now. i'm back to those creams and mask and squeeze. and a little bit more to satisfy them right ju ju? keke

dear dear the weather is so hot this afternoon, i'm sweating like mad when i went out with dad to get something from the market. i seriously starts to hate the weather so much i wanna curse it! look at what the humidity has done to my face now?! oh then, i'm starting to consider another hair cut to fix my currently out-of-shape one. but its too late to chop them off when school is starting in a few days time. u know very well how the hair need a week or so to look good.

updated at 021105-10.03pm

hah just come across these pics too. funny aren't they?! the boy in blue is duper cute! ya da ya da ya da ya da- school's starting in a week's time and the timetable is not out yet. i wonder what TP is doing. watever it is, this sem onwards is gonna be tougher. that's what the lecturer told us and i hope i can turn into a total geek to mug for better grades. i dun care la just bloody hell scram home after lessons to revise. my sis can study like the whole day long with a little break in between and then back to her study table, rumbling away... oh crap what a life! i wanna get crazy and play so foolishly until i grow tried and so settling down to study. ok! i should get my table tidied up nicely :)